BBC, Sherlock/John, Sherlock lists of Good and Not Good

[charmedstrange1.livejournal.com]

Oh dear friends, please help me with this fic. It's probably my absolute favorite of all Sherlock/John I've ever read, but somehow I never bookmarked it? I've searched all the ways I can think to and just no sign of it... I dearly hope it's not deleted or something. I'm pretty sure it was on AO3.

Under cut because it's an extra-long description==>


Sherlock loves, like REALLY LOVES John. They are together. Sherlock has a long list of things he thinks are Okay and another list of things that are Not Okay. The lists are revealed slowly through the fic, and one of the Sherlock's Okay ones is to "Divorce John". (I'm not even sure they are married? but it's a weird Sherlock-logic thing about how they would know each other even better or something after going through a divorce... when John discovers this he vetos it and makes Sherlock move it to his Not Okay list.)

John, when he finds the lists/finds out about the lists, is somewhat taken aback by all the creepy-Sherlock things he would like to do (I can't remember specifics.. things like wanting to taste his eyeballs, see his organs, etc, lol).. but John gets a picture of how Sherlock thinks/feels, and he says a line (the one that has stuck with me all this time..) something like "... but my God, how you love me."

Toward the end of the fic John gifts Sherlock with X-rays or ECG of his heartbeat or something of the like, and Sherlock is overwhelmingly touched with how much John *understands* him.


I love this fic like Sherlock loves John. Please please please someone out there know what I'm talking about? I will be forever in your debt!!! <3

ETA: FOUND!!! and so quickly!! by the amazing and beautiful aerye A million thanks, doll!!!

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[aerye.livejournal.com]

Paradox series by wordstrings: http://archiveofourown.org/series/28906

I love it too!

[charmedstrange1.livejournal.com]

Oh, how are you so wonderful??? That is it!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!