Searching For a Post Reichenbach Fic

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I can't remember a lot of details other than John is in some sort of danger, the type where I believe Mycroft has to have agents guarding him at one point -- and he maybe involved somehow in clearing Sherlock's name. Also I believe in this John contemplates and plans to commit suicide after everything had calmed down and has decided to do it away from Baker Street so Mrs Hudson won't find him dead but actually never has a chance to go through with it because Sherlock comes back. Anyone know what I am talking about?

ETA: Nevermind I found it myself. It is Dark Night of the Soul by Sioux!